[SYNTHESIZER V] BREAK ME (HXVOC)

I dedicate this song to the nights I spent as a shut-in reading toxic monster yaoi smut to cope with literally everything in my early adulthood. Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7xmCHJcISs8ZbjGEKZvyky?si=O7Nv9udCQ8CCkLljCsqPSw LYRICS: Keep the curtains drawn, and please don't open the door The fantasies I yearn to see are normally abhorred And I know it's all a vice, that I'm stuck inside a dream But it really seems reality and I just won't agree Take me to a secret place where I could be his everything Cravings of the flesh will placate loneliness I can't escape "Myself" is just a thing to hate, it's killing me to be this way Craving for the kiss of death to carry me out far away You can hurt me, you can kill me All I wish is that you never leave me Vampires and werewolves and all in between Come jump out the pages, and pick my bones clean It's happening again as I sink into the bed Seed shoots on my hand, twisted dreams inside my head I'm peeling back my flesh, see my shriveled heart is dead No one ever listens and nobody understands It's happening again as I cry into my hands Nobody would want me for it's all in fate's own plans I'm tearing in my chest, see my body's cold with dread My mind forever beckons for desires deemed lowbred Stuck inside a rotting corpse My voice, it cries a sob so hoarse Craving just to be adored I'll die alone, and nothing more My mouth, it bleeds the puke I spew My mind is going all askew Stalked, or hurt, or killed, or worse I only want to be with you Never leave me, never hate me In this love, trapped in a lovely story Vampires and werewolves and all in between Come, sensual nightmares, and soothe me to sleep It's happening again as I sink into the bed Seed shoots on my hand, twisted dreams inside my head I'm peeling back my flesh, see my shriveled heart is dead No one ever listens and nobody understands It's happening again as I cry into my hands Nobody would want me for it's all in fate's own plans I'm tearing in my chest, see my body's cold with dread My mind forever beckons for desires deemed lowbred Kiss me Touch me Love me, then Fuck me Hurt me Cut me Kill me, then Eat me Kiss me Touch me Love me, then Fuck me Hurt me Cut me Kill me, then EAT ME It's happening again as I sink into the bed Seed shoots on my hand, twisted dreams inside my head I'm peeling back my flesh, see my shriveled heart is dead No one ever listens and nobody understands It's happening again as I cry into my hands Nobody would want me for it's all in fate's own plans I'm tearing in my chest, see my body's cold with dread My mind forever beckons for desires deemed lowbred It's happening again Yes, it's happening again It's happening again Oh, it's happening again It's happening again Yes, it's happening again It's happening again God, it's happening again It's happening again Yes, it's happening again It's happening again Oh, it's happening again It's happening again Yes, it's happening again It's happening again FUCK, it's happening again Keep the curtains drawn, and please don't open the door The fantasies I yearn to see are normally abhorred And I know it's all a vice, that I'm stuck inside a dream But it really seems reality and I just won't agree INST: https://1drv.ms/u/c/c0a58453b415087e/EVE9ebmJuYBDjRZ7DYfANYEBau4XVotjUikR2OHOrM08RA?e=6YXnca