Dysphoria (ver. 日本語) - angelbrained feat. GUMI SV

are you guys tired of seeing this song remade over and over again? this is a pretty special surprise, a collaboration with a friend of dumas-p to make an official japanese cover of one of my songs, hopefully the first of many, in the future! i'm not actually sure how big the audience for this particular cover would potentially be, but given dysphoria is a fan-favorite song, i'm sure it'll have its fans, and for the people who really need it, it will be there for. this won't be the only upload this month, no-sir! the "canon version" of radio electric re-wired is also on the way in the month's latter half, and come december... you can expect another all-new original song, if all goes well! i really cannot thank my audience enough for the retention and love that was given to radio electric re-wired upon its release. i hope i don't disappoint all my new fans... or my old ones, for that matter! enjoy the music, and i'll see you next time! render of course by @DumasP as usual translation by Seroly Nogawa https://x.com/Seroly_KR2009 this wouldn't have been possible without them! Instrumental: https://soundcloud.com/angelbrained/dysphoriv-instrumental Vocal Synth Project Files: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1184TuI5to4yLluX5MjLDs7_oqXGisFyP?usp=sharing ------------------------ https://www.patreon.com/angelbrained my website: https://angelbrained.uwu.ai my discord: https://discord.gg/USzEM5tB2R my tumblr: https://angelbrained.tumblr.com my soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/angelbrained my twitter: https://twitter.com/angelbrained #vocaloid #originalsong #gumi #transgender #synthv LYRICS: once again, with a sorrowful gaze 今日も　瞳の奥 eyes look back, peering deep into a broken heart 貫くは　悲哀の残響 watching as i tear away / the things that seem to, every day, 寝ても覚めても　魂を見つめ just leave me up in pieces being torn apart 血まみれの茨を剥がし looking down i see / every part of me 俯けば　バラバラに feels like breaking after every single day 音を立て自我が崩れ most importantly / something inside me 内なる私が叫ぶ keeps on aching knowing that i'll never be the same as them 「あの子たちみたいにはなれない」と i'll / make a wish もう一回 try to change what makes me who i am and 作り直すことを give up on what bothers me i might as well not even try 無駄だとしても　祈り続けたい keep on hoping, so you'll see あなただけには there's nothing here but misery ただ見ててほしい you'll find that this is what I've come to be ただ悲しい物語 face the facts / i can't change them even if i try どうせ/何も変わりはしない not meant to live life as a boy so/ why must i be born this way? 何故生まれ落ちたは/『少年』の檻？ try again, day after day / to fix what causes my dismay 何度も必死に / 前を向こうとして but give up knowing that i really might as well just die 諦めたらもう死ぬしかない once again, with every passing day 今日も　体の中 things get worse, like my body's being torn apart 時が　私を引き裂いて cry some more and waste away / it's not like i care anyway 涙が落ちて　虚しさが満ちて what use is there in trying when it's plain as day 無意味と無力が積もっていく looking down i see / every part of me 俯けば　バラバラに feels like breaking into tiny little shards 崩れた破片が残る most importantly / something inside me 内なる私が叫ぶ knows it's pointless living if i'll never be like them 「なれなければ意味などない」と i'll / make a wish もう一回 try to change what makes me who i am and 作り直すことを give up on what bothers me i might as well not even try 無駄だとしても　祈り続けたい keep on hoping, so you'll see あなただけには there's nothing here but misery ただ見ててほしい you'll find that this is what I've come to be ただ悲しい物語 face the facts / i can't change them even if i try どうせ/何も変わりはしない not meant to live life as a boy so/ why must i be born this way? 何故生まれ落ちたは/『少年』の檻？ try again, day after day / to fix what causes my dismay 何度も必死に / 前を向こうとして but give up knowing that i really might as well just.... 諦めることはもう選ばない……！ try again もう一回 deep inside i know just who i am / it doesn't matter what they say / so what if i was born this way? 誰がなんと言っても / 私だけが生まれた意味になれる keep on hoping, so you'll see / i might just change who i can be 祈り続ければ変われるはずと and live my life as the girl that i know i am and 苦悩の果ては『少女』の翼 though you see, / every part of me やがてバラバラと feels like breaking after every single day 音を立て殻は破れ most importantly / my heart keeps beating 内なる私は叫ぶ i'll do anything it takes if i can be like all the rest なってやる　本当の私へと