【CYAN】 MADMAN 【Vocaloid Original】

Edgar Edge used to be a violent, abusive guy. But that was years ago. After he hurt someone he loved, he tried to change everything about himself, tried to become a better person. Earned a professor degree to make his world better. Worked hard, but still he feels like he can't balance the harm he has done in the past. And despite being a big softie, sometimes his bad side is showing again... DOWNLOAD: https://marvyanaka.bandcamp.com/album/madman ♥♥♥ production: Marvyanaka vocal: Cyber Songman (Vocaloid4) ♥♥♥ Lyrics: need to preserve who I am now cannot forget it's just a mask I'm freaking out will my demons come out again? the same? am I still there? look at me now what do you see? you should’ve known known that I am weak I can't repay for all of my old sins I've done and all my mistakes I'm losing myself I'm loosing again this one time tell me do I deserve this? a waste of space a waste of time a waste of air all the way a waste of resoruces need to embrace my own despair I know its lair I am there and I am the monster I cannot explain it's pleasure or pain? I'm drowning in shame living day by day am I too afraid to go out and face my tormented fate I cannot be saved help me reaches for me with deadly claws I know this voice from brutal past who did I fail? who did I hurt again? I had enough! am I still there? I wish I could just look away to feel the love for which I crave it's a disease that flows in my old veins like hate and rage I'm losing myself I'm loosing again no need to say it that I deserve this a waste of space a waste of time a waste of air all the way a waste of resoruces need to embrace my own despair I know its lair I am there and I am the monster maybe nothing's left and I haven't changed that experiment will drive me insane my anxiety to which I succumb knows my real fate this is how it ends this is how it ends find me at the end of the times trust me you don't want to see me now I've tried to change my mind and ways yet here I am falling down down I feel this rage inside going mad I'm going mad there is no time for debate now without any doubt I am a waste of space a waste of time a waste of air all the way a waste of resources need to escape degrading chains I'm no monster nor lair I'm simply a madman this is something else, it's pleasure and pain running in my veins this is who I am my anxiety is calling my name do you hear me now? I cannot be saved help me ♥SOCIAL MEDIA!♥ BandCamp: http:///marvyanaka.bandcamp.com/ DeviantArt: http://marvyanaka.deviantart.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/marvyanakap/ Twitter: http://twitter.com/MarvyanakaART SoundCloud: http://soundcloud.com/marvyanaka