i know im dying / ft sheena sv

entirely made for experimenting okay whatever. first song made in fl studio i faced my fears and learned how to use it. turns out its actually really easy and i was being dramatic. also used the smt1 snes soundfont because im autistic and needed to motivate myself to learn fl somehow and that somehow was so that i could use my favourite sound effect from one of my favourite games ever hashtag i love you atlus sound team from the 90s consistent bangers every time okay. ALSO new tuning style im finally putting effort into tuning everyone clap please and thank you. ive always gotten pissed off when people say they hate synthv because its too realistic so ive decided to put more effort into making my tuning unrealistic. every synthv will be an utau once im done with them. okay enjoy my song lyrics: I'm a being of compulsion don't you ever think about the suffocating hate of it all but it never ever helps no never no matter what I do I couldn't speak to the girl behind me I couldn't hear you I'm far too eager now to die torture me slowly I can't bear it any longer but I can hear her calling down in hatred it feels like dismemberment it's so unsightly say it slowly, that I think I'm dying I am not rotten I am not broken I am not helpless I am not hurting I am not human I am not tired I am not lonely I am not living I'm sorry to the child inside of me I split her head in two and ate her entrails something horrifying grew inside of me he never speaks her name I'm a being of decision don't you ever think about the way I crumble over again but it never ever works no never no matter what I do I couldn't speak to the girl inside me I couldn't be her I know I'll hurt her if I try I couldn't speak to the girl behind me I couldn't hear you I'm far too eager now to die torture me slowly I can't bear it any longer but I can hear her calling down in hatred it feels like dismemberment it's so unsightly say it slowly, that I think I'm dying repeat the cycle I can't hate it anymore but still, I can feel her calling out in sickness coat me in nausea and watch me flourish but inside, I'm certain now I know I'm dying ~~~~~~~~ inst, svp, etc: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/13CGb1LckYB4GB58f3Xqp_fKbrX6BamAB?usp=drive_link soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/gabe-849065608/i-know-im-dying?si=a599a8cbddc348829ccbc6ff6d7d6d2e&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing