【Denki Sai】Improvement Starts With You【UTAU Original Song】

CONTENT WARNING: This song contains strong themes of abandonment issues, self-harm, and self-hatred/degradation described from a second person perspective (i.e. “You’re a horrible person”, the speaker talking to themself). If you are sensitive to these subjects, it’s recommended that you click away. – The disorganized thoughts of someone still spiraling past rock bottom. – i guess. this is kind of my producer debut..?? it feels really surreal creating music myself in any sense. i kind of regret making the lyrics a bit personal and aggressive, but i wrote the general outline for them a little bit ago while going through a lot of self-hatred surrounding some shit i struggle with frequently and have lived with for a long time, and i just happened to like how they sounded. it’s nothing new though, i’ve been writing lyrics like this since middle school. if i keep making music i’ll probably end up having a lot of edgy ass songs. that’s just how i tend to write! i also uh. honestly, i don’t really actually care if people don’t like that the topic for my first song is so heavy. i want my first impression to be honest, that not everything i write is gonna be very positive, it’s gonna be stuffed full of a lot of Feelings And Shits and a lot of those Feelings And Shitses happen to not be the most cheerful ever. some of them are messy and awful and all over the place. like this! so… i hope that makes sense… i also made this whole thing in around 10 hours last week and i wasn’t even all there, i honestly completely blacked out through the whole process, so it’s pretty tiny and the mv is low-effort. i just wanted to make something to focus on. but oh well. at least i’m happy with it and also denki’s here because i love him. i wanna make more songs with him in the future we’re gonna be like how deco*27 is with miku edit 4/7/2026: please keep in mind i don't have a lot of experience. i'm a kid starting a new hobby, i'm trying my best, and i'd appreciate if everyone was a little fucking kinder. i've restricted the comments since no one can just be respectful. my music isn't gonna be for everyone, and it *certainly* doesn't have to be for you, but if you're going to go out of your way to tell me it's shit instead of just clicking away, i'm not going to fucking tolerate you. i don't even care why you're here in the first place. you're not a good person, and you're not as funny or cool as you think you are for being an insufferable asshole, either instrumental, svp/ustx, etc: drive.google.com/drive/folders/1C-28RZVdyiIudVjApFsmd-nPvbeT54-n stuff i use: - openutau (vocals) - fl studio (music) - krita (art) - aviutl2 (video) credits: cyanide (that’s me) / music, lyrics, tuning, art, video denki sai [proof] / vocals lyrics: (parasitic manipulative careless piece of shit attention whore freak desperate for a meaning we’re all tired of it. never wavering swallowed by your bed you never try you just fucking whine self hating self sabotaging insecure beg and cry parasitic once more, said it you’re pathetic bleed out ‘til you die again. again.) (Huh, it’s like you WANT to get worse!) There’s a reason no one likes you. There’s a reason they all leave you. Here’s a hint: You never change. You never try. A sickening waste of time, and all you do is lie. You fucking cry. I really don’t know why they bother. Grieve when they leave, grow the hell up. ‘Cause this is the thousandth time. No one feels bad when you push them all away. One day you will rot all alone. They won’t have a second thought. And the fun part is, we all know it’s all your fault! Yes, your fault— Hold that thought. You can’t get away with saying, “These things take time”, this time. We’re done waiting on you. Five years now! We’re getting impatient! Look me in the eyes. Tell me how you live with yourself like this. Unforgivable, intolerable! Shut your mouth and fix your problems. Get yourself together for once. (is it worth it? was it ever worth risking your life?) Take a good long look at yourself! See what you’ve done? Your mess, your fault! The loss is yours alone Short-lived, cut off “This is always how it ends!” Wonder why! Take a look inside, ‘cause it’s always been you! Just you! No one else’s problem too! You never learn! You’ll never learn! Go on and face it! Better off alone, No one to use. Nothing to fuck up. Isolation’s the only cure for you now! Fuck your tears, and cut deeper down. They’re all happier without you around, No one ever trusted you’d change! Let’s get one thing straight, Don’t tell me you’ve been “honest.” Don’t lie to me. Look, here’s what *I* see. I’ll believe you when you’re not the same person who cried to me. (break the cycle lose all hope and end the loop, be born anew empty, lifeless, self abused. give out. improvement starts with you)