I'm Tired Of Acting Like I Don't Want To Die // (Ft. Kasane Teto SV2)【SynthV Original】 (重音テトSV2)

#kasaneteto #重音テト #synthv #ボカロ #ボカロ曲 #ボーカロイド "As long as I can make everyone laugh, it doesn’t matter how, I’ll be alright. The one thing I must avoid is becoming offensive in their eyes: I shall be nothing, the wind, the sky." - Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human "He[Robin Williams] came off stage after bringing a cheering audience to its feet. 'Isn’t it funny how I can bring great happiness to all these people,' he said. 'But not to myself.' The non-actor has a major advantage because it’s harder to hide the symptoms. The actor knows how to act." - Dick Cavett Content warning: This song mentions suicide. Viewer discretion is advised. Bandcamp: https://reclaimantoflife.bandcamp.com/track/im-tired-of-acting-like-i-dont-want-to-die-ft-kasane-teto-sv2 Instrumental + Stems: https://reclaimantoflife.bandcamp.com/album/im-tired-of-acting-like-i-dont-want-to-die-stems https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Akzc36KamtU Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/reclaimantoflife/im-tired-of-acting-like-i-dont Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0cjfxn05ySwASuukKSNPsE Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/im-tired-of-acting-like-i-dont-want-to-die-single/6769472616 Music, Arrangement, Lyrics, & Mixing: Reclaimant of Life (Dylan Wong) Artwork: 巣鴨: https://x.com/illu_kamo https://skeb.jp/@illu_kamo Vocals: Kasane Teto SV2 #重音テトSV2 Made with REAPER Mastered with Matchering V2 Vietnamese subtitles by: Thiên Bảo Kiều Russian subtitles by: @ProstoDez SVPs: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/139JWtKGpTNTTXBUFiIpDk03sXeo4Tzxb If you want to cover this song or translate it into other languages, please contact me at wongwc1998@gmail.com. Lyrics: [Verse 1] For thirty-one years, I've played the same character. Lived my life like I was being choked by a constrictor. I must be a great actor. No one ever found me out. No one knows about the pain inside of this clown. Singing to myself sad songs no one must hear. Curling up and crying in the shower, hidden tears. Brightening up people's lives, brushing off mine. Acting like I don't want to die. Acting like I'm fine. [Pre-chorus 1] Maybe all this drudgery is how life's meant to be. Maybe I've just seen it all. I'm not sad and moody. Maybe I'll plow fields, 'til I die with my body always drooped. Maybe I'll live out my days as a chicken forever cooped. [Chorus 1] I'm tired of acting like I don't want to die. Can't bear the pain of smiling like I'm just fine. Forever afraid of anybody's eyes. Deceiving everyone with my jokes and lies. I want to become nothing and feel nothing. So being something else won't be so crushing. I just want to fly free like a stillborn girl, away from this unending play-acting world. [Verse 2] I'm ruminating again. This won't pay the bills. But is this the truth that I had always tried to kill? Nothing in life is fun. It's all performance. Scared of being hurt, I always act in conformance. Living with no soul. Killing my principles. Too afraid of being hurt if I'm responsible. Taking care of people's needs. Burying mine. Acting like I don't wanna die. Acting like I'm fine. [Pre-chorus 2] Maybe when I die, they'll find my mask stuck to my face. Maybe I have to be brave and take this leap of faith. Maybe dying isn't bad when you're hurting with every breath. Maybe I can end this pain if I conquer my fear of death. [Chorus 2] I'm tired of acting like I don't want to die. Can't bear the pain of smiling like I'm just fine. Forever afraid of anybody's eyes. Deceiving everyone with my jokes and lies. I want to become nothing and feel nothing. So being something else won't be so crushing. I just want to fly free like a stillborn girl, away from this unending play-acting world. [Bridge] Kasane Teto found it a piece of cake. to finish and commit her last mistake. She told her friend her allergic mother was back. She trusted her friend to take good care of her cat. She didn't hesitate to dive off the cliffs. She was tired of worrying about so many what-ifs. She fell, and the ocean's warm embrace caught her. She dissolved like a drop of water in water. [Chorus 3] I'm tired of acting like I don't want to die. Can't bear the pain of smiling like I'm just fine. Forever afraid of anybody's eyes. Deceiving everyone with my jokes and lies. I want to become nothing and feel nothing. So being something else won't be so crushing. I'll be reborn as a bright red ocean foam. So please don't cry, Mom, I'm just going home. [Outro] Born from nothing. Return to nothing. Hypervigilant nothing. Hypersensitive nothing. I've overworked everything. And I've accomplished nothing. I am nothing. I am nothing. Born from nothing. Return to nothing. Hypervigilant nothing. Hypersensitive nothing. I've overworked everything. And I've accomplished nothing. I am nothing. I am nothing. Timestamps: 0:00 Preface + Content Warning 0:11 Verse 1 1:06 Pre-Chorus 1 1:35 Chorus 1 2:35 Verse 2 3:29 Pre-Chorus 2 3:55 Chorus 2 4:51 Solo 1 5:16 Bridge 6:15 Final Chorus 7:19 Solo 2 7:36 Outro