The Fool ft. GUMI (Synth V Original)

A song about anxiety and the cycles that feed into it Music, Lyrics, Art: niabi @niabiishere ----------------------- Lyrics: Paused in front of the door with a shaky hand You know very well what happens when you cross that line But the clock won't halt so here you stand You fail to steady your nerves as you step outside Hands on the boulder for another try I should have known I couldn't live on without going up the hill There's always something else, always another time I've got a book of failed attempts and its filled to the brim Flipping through all the tries that came before It's like a wasn't as prepared as a should have been I think I'm missing something all the others have The paper fish wonders why it can't swim The serpent in my chest starts squirming around The gulps of air I swallow still can't shove it down And my head can't bring itself to do its work So all I can do is just make everything worse And I prove it all right when I fuck up again I will always trip, its just a matter of when No matter what I know I cant be free No one else can make a fool like me Another chance to compete has been blown I might have had a shot and yet I threw it away Make yourself worse by staying in your zone One day it would be match point if I could ever play From the sidelines I look into their eyes And I can tell that they know that I didn't really try But they don't have to be me so they don't believe If I try to go fishing I'll just drown in the sea The serpent in my chest makes a wary strike The gulps of air I swallow only set me alight And my head can't process through the endless curse So all I have left is to make everything worse And I prove it all right when I fuck up again I will always trip, its just a matter of when No matter what I know I cant be free No one else can make a fool like me Accept when they offer their feigned sympathy But what kind of squirrel can't climb up a tree? No advice to be had for a defective piece It's alright everyone! C'mon, laugh at the freak! And I prove it all right by fucking up again I can always count on fault, its just a matter of when No matter what I know I cant be free No one else can make a fool like me And as I lay shattered Get reminded again It won't stop until I'm with the ferryman The gods all resolute in their decree No one else can make a fool like me ----------------------- I am pretty disappointed with how this one turned out. It sounded a lot better in my head than on paper. A lot more circus-y. I might take another shot at the instrumentation when I've improved more, but, for now, I'm moving on to the next project. Thank you very much for listening!