GUILTY PLEASURE【feat. Kasane Teto】

✧ stream me! ✧ ﹒spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/2iHWeRTMswrOpG8VyhGj3b?si=s_uZBxMzTPKPTlmSb5vYqg ﹒apple music & more: https://ampl.ink/DlAyr ﹒cover materials: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1R64Tcuhaz39s8DQccXjgxfgsOQOyS00W?usp=drive_link you ever try writing a song about your DND character but it becomes a song about not being able to forgive yourself for past wrongdoings and constantly blaming yourself for everything that's ever gone wrong in your life to the point where you reject the grace of others? couldn't be me! i'm so excited to release my first original! it's been one hell of a time but we got there in the end folks. special thanks to chai for sitting through my thousands of mixes, my friends for watching me edit this mv bit by bit, and to everyone for supporting me during the process of this release! and also a huge shout out to ray - i absolutely would not have been able to finish the video without their beautiful art! ✧ credits! ✧ ﹒music/art/mv: tigerjolteo https://www.youtube.com/@tigerjolteo ﹒extra art/logo: Rayiroat https://www.youtube.com/@rayiroat ✧ socials! ✧ ﹒discord server: https://discord.gg/eyyr6xSQSf ﹒instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tigerjolteo ﹒twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/tigerjolteo1413 ﹒twitter: https://x.com/tigerjolteo ﹒e-mail: tigerjolteo@gmail.com ✧ support me! ✧ ﹒patreon: https://patreon.com/tigerjolteo ﹒ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/tigerjolteo ﹒throne: https://throne.com/tigerjolteo Lyrics: Lying awake in the dead of the night As the shadows arise in the corner of my eyes Sinking deeper, they gather, blink once and they'll scatter No trace of a phantom remains Down the drain, no prayers left to say Turning pages, the sin just won't wash away Dip my pen in blood, spilled ink across my name The onus of ruin is on me Guilty and lost as can be Dripping off the counter top Storms that brew at midnight fall Courting the bottle by the clock Waiting to be caught I'm tried by the waves in the dread of the night Chasing tide after tide where the truths go to die Now I'm trapped in a cycle of pleading this lie Is there no one but me left to blame? Will you condemn me today? Swallowed beneath, I can't breathe, slowly closing in Bravery is wasted on a tainted faith Weight of an audience befalls one indicted There's no escape from a hell of my making Fear so vain, it's growing everyday Burning pages, the ashes all fly away Singeing stars to black, I know they'll never fade Discerning me 'til I'm deceased Watching me thrive on deceit Guilty by my own decree Drifting afloat in dreams of old Bliss in the throes of seaborn woes Stilling my heartbeat as I watch All that's loved be lost to delusions born of cowardice My sins will destroy me Now this paranoia's routine Can't you see that I feel so alive When I cling to the cycle of pleading this lie? 'Cause there's no one but me you could blame Won't you condemn me today? Don't try to rectify my vile existence Leave me to drown in disgrace