Hydrangea Girl | Stardust Infinity [SynthV Original Song]

●⛤『The needles on my body grow. Piercing me, even though I know.』⛤●　 🪻️‍⚧️🌳 ★~☆★~☆★~☆★☆~★☆ ✧ info ✧ 『fun fact, i've had this song done for a year this is honestly one of the most personal songs i've made while not feeling like i'm torturing myself to write and make it long story short, dysphoria sucks』 ★~☆★~☆★~☆★☆~★☆ ✧ midi + inst ✧ » https://bit.ly/hydraangeagirl ✧ streaming ✧ streaming services » https://share.amuse.io/mbLQIHV-LRzL soundcloud » https://soundcloud.com/sade_p/hydrangea-girl bandcamp » https://sadeproducer.bandcamp.com/album/hydrangea-girl ✧ credits ✧ » song, sade-p » video, sade-p hydrangea footage - https://youtu.be/UHtPwv3ISMY?si=XfzSZbU2M3tJF57c - https://youtu.be/TpNLHke8Rzs?si=f68BgCPAajRBnD3y - https://youtu.be/bXbP5epW5Jc?si=biU5hrKsSExzMRD_ » illustration, idenythis » vocal, 星尘Infinity / stardust infinity + mai ★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆ soundcloud, https://soundcloud.com/sade_p discord, averymuchsir piapro, https://piapro.jp/averymuchsir ★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆ Blossoming towards something effeminate My character being truly illegitimate True colours of pink and blue and white reprise The pink is what I want in my life Pink hydrangea, can I love myself again? When will this euphoria sustain? Blue lavender, can I get rid of you forever? White wisteria, please make me feel at home forever. The needles on my body grow Piercing me even though I know My voice has grain and so it shines And my face is now full of vines Pull me inside out and tear me out I can't stand to be this awful now You tell me it's going to be okay But then, why was I ever born this way Pink hydrangea, what do I gain from this dysphoria? Pink hydrangea, aren't you able to inaugurate my euphoria? Blue higanbana, can't you set me free? So I won't have to think about what keeps caging me The needles on my body grow Piercing me even though I know My voice has grain and so it shines And my face is now full of vines Pull me inside out and tear me out I can't stand to be this awful now You tell me it's going to be okay But then, why was I ever born this way I can't do this, it'll take too long I want it gone, I can't go on My voice, my hair, my head, my chest I will NEVER be like the rest "Change" it all, free for all Dystopian idiopathy, all I need is to be free My fate is killing me Upside-down on a willow tree