HAPPY EXTERMINATION - cosmosdystopia ft. namine ritsu

"nobody can save me now!" instrumental is coming later hello, i'm dystopia. i composed this back in february, and i've made a lot of songs since then. i hope they're to your liking. there are some things in this life we have no control over. what people think of us is one of them. of course, you can try to change, but it's hard. sometimes you tell yourself you have to keep smiling and be happy, and you end up hating yourself over it. it's normal. it's bad to think that, of course, but you're not a bad person for thinking that. thank you for reading the description. best regards. lyrics ------------------------------------------ ah, would you look at that? i've changed the topic, yet again aren't i the best at turning a blind eye at everything? ah, would you look at that? everybody has left, again i can't even comfort myself, aren't i just a mess? ah, would you look at that? i'm crying over that again every promise i've broken, every mistake i've made ah, would you look at that? i forgot about it again i'm aware the day i'm forgiven will never really come so round up the corpses, everyone listen! happiness is merely a step away from you! (i promise!) round up your worries and burn them all away forget your ideals, lead your righteousness astray! so what if you're worried? you have nothing to fear! daily life's already a colorless battlefield heaven? salvation? nothing but chants repeated by the same people who set fire to every single dream just become blind to every single thing let your whole reality disappear this disgusting smile i've kept for years on end if i break it now, maybe i'll be free again --that's what i'd like to think, but really all of this is just a stupid fantasy i cling on to the hope that one day this'll end nobody can save me now! all that i lost long ago yells at me from the mirror i can't go back to the time everything was alright every time i remember all the dreams i had back then the dirty scars i've hidden open up yet again so round up the corpses, everyone listen! happiness has never been closer to you! (i promise!) round up your worries and burn them all away forget your ideals, lead your righteousness astray! will this make me happy? will it finally be enough? for once in my life, i want to think it's not in vain "it's all my fault" is what i've believed this whole time i don't want to give up, but all this pain'll never cease it's such a tragedy it all ends here all the sins that've been piling up for years so surely if we'll rot away eventually it wouldn't hurt to smile a little more --that's what i'd like to think, but really all of this is just a stupid fantasy i guess i'll keep the act up for eternity will i ever be saved? all the sins i've hidden all this time appear before me in the middle of the night i've lied to myself. my entire life is lies. do i know anything? i don't know anything! "is this really what you want? is this really how you feel?" "yes, this is how i feel! this is really how i feel!" again, it's a lie? again, another lie? nothing's really changed at all and everything comes crumbling apart just become blind to every single thing let your whole reality disappear this disgusting smile i've kept for years on end if i break it now, maybe i'll be free again it's such a tragedy it all ends here all the sins that've been piling up for years so surely if we'll rot away eventually it wouldn't hurt to smile a little more --that's what i'd like to think, but really salvation is just a stupid fantasy! hope is nothing but a distant memory nobody can save me now! don't you have anything better to do?