【kasane teto】eat my heart out【SynthV original song】

you are terrible, and you are beautiful CREDITS: mv/music/illust: menhera lad mix/master: carbon monoxide vocals: kasane teto, kevin, yi xi i'd also like to give an extra special thank you to @camovoca for doing the full mix and master for this song!!! you seriously brought this song to life, and this project would be nowhere near what it is now, i am incredibly grateful!! DOWNLOADS: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1mDBxudaUBibsoCdDE2ID6vg30K_0u8I4?usp=sharing LYRICS: i pray, the lord my guts to keep lie after lie, i spare my pain and heartache for the "weak" o, cast all unto thee god, i feel so sick he cannot- (he cannot cure me) well, nutrition is perdition and my gut is all for naught (fuck) oh, mercy be a part of me for surely, i know no god! (i know no god) forever and again, you sermonize your spite and preach your lovin' to the choir written in blood-on-blade foolish apostate, you vilify your name here lay her rose bouquet oh, mourn her early grave! oh please have mercy on me, 'cause i'd probably just starve but i'll eat my heart out my god! monsignor, (oh please) just tell me where i'm hurt so i'll remain devout silence, how absurd this is deserved (this is deserved) (eat my heart out, eat my heart out, eat my heart out, eat my heart out) once more, it's me, myself, and i i've long forgot those verses i'd memorized without asking why that damn irish goodbye i'll lose my fucking mind and keep it to myself 'cause i'm not worth your time i hang my head in shame (my head in shame) oh, worship me, your muse-to-be, my every stinging scripture! (oh, my) god, you're perfect, asinine (that's right) you sacrifice your urges, bleeding all throughout the night and when they meet your eyes, put down your fork and knife and keep it- (keep it to yourself) well, my appetite is out of spite you've earned naught but your shame oh, mercy pleads, and desperately, she offers me a card go on, eat my heart out oh i beseech thee, songbird for they hang on your every word and they'll feed on your doubt gracefully unnerved this is what you deserve eat my heart out, eat my heart out, eat my heart out, i wanna eat my heart out father fyodor, i can't keep living like this, can i? i'm just sick of it. i'm sure you are too, father. father, tell me: how should i suffer today? what path do i choose? i'm supposed to be in control of my emotions, aren't i? so why can't i feel anything normally? every thought (eat my heart out) is nauseating and suffocating good or bad, it doesn't matter (eat my heart out) my brain doesn't even know the difference every day is a calculated decision (eat my heart out) and i always choose wrong i think i'm just (eat my heart out) bad at living it sounds harsh to say that, but it's the truth, father