Bedroom Door / Airco ft. GUMI

What makes me "me"? Music, lyrics, art, video - Airco https://x.com/airconfanatic Vocals - GUMI SV 2 Streaming: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/airco/bedroom-door?ref=release Bandcamp: https://airco.bandcamp.com/track/bedroom-door NND: https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm46213739 Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1Jv1R54lD4X_9M8_ymelbBPFRggWOQ-HA?usp=drive_link __ This song started out as an excuse to just smash the keys on my keyboard and go "my stupid baka life! why am I so grassless??" but I think it worked out in the end? This girl's name is Mudo and she's another one of my characters! Oh and the girl from Orange Peel is Clementine. Those two songs are related. I'm still working out what I should call my characters as a collective. Aircos? Aircharas? I'm not quite sure. Anyway enough of my rambling. I hope you all enjoy this one! __ Lyrics: Fluorescent pale imitation of the sunlight blackout curtains, never quite right I’m losing patience but I’ll never change, despite constant contrite Adolescence slipping away out of outstretched hands while I’m still rotting inside just waiting for someone to take my worries and put them out of sight I hope you’ll just forget me but still I want your praise lost chasing better days, it’s all in disarray still looping those measures in search of a better phrase I need this more than anything, won’t settle for delays No time to be who I wanna be trying to make up for the years I spent pretending Why write when you’re the addressee? a useless attempt to transcend In my obsession I lose the very essence of what makes me “me” I don’t know anymore The walls are closing in but I won’t leave the security of my white bedroom door and here I’m always thinking what’ll come of being discarded outlived my use I’ve carried this false confidence since I started so tell me what I am if anything at all or just go in accord Incessant worries of what they think so I lock the door, it’s better this way I’m growing anxious thinking of the possibility for change Obsolescence coming ever closer, ink is drying fast upon the page Stuck this sense of “wanting” but no willingness to stray I hope you’ll just forget me but still I want your praise lost hoping you would stay but it can’t be that way still looping those measures in search of a better phrase My work is never good enough to properly portray No time to be who I wanna be trying to make up for the years I spent pretending Why write when you’re the addressee? a useless attempt to transcend At expense of all those times I tried hitting the keys and hoping they’d sound right I don’t wanna lose this feeling, need to keep improving to close the divide In my obsession I’m losing the connection to what makes me “me” I don’t know anymore The walls are closing in but I won’t leave the security of my white bedroom door and here I’m always thinking what’ll come of being discarded outlived my use I’ve carried this false confidence since I started so tell me what I am if anything at all, maybe I’ll see what’s in store #オリジナル曲 #gumi #synthv #originalsong #vocaloid