[VOISONA] Heartbreak and a Bed (MECHASUZUKA)

"Your bloody handprints won't wash off of me. I don't know if I want them to." I was so excited when this voicebank came out because I'm a big fan of Ichimatsu Suzuka's voice, I just had to use one of my WIPs for this! I hope you guys enjoy! Music/Lyrics/PV/Illust: SHUDDER Vocal: MECHASUZUKA (voiced by @SZK. ) Lyrics: A putrid miasma, it rose inside my guts A decomposing peony, A symbol of my love And when you took out both my eyes, I loved you all the same I couldn't see reality, its grimace gave me shame A hematoma, cardiac contusion, her lips had carried death The sight of you devouring her face, my saddened heart had wept So don't tell me, console me, that it's not my fault at all This cruel charade I've happily played has caused my tears to fall Flay me alive, and there you'd see that my heart, it's beating just for you Under my skin, my body is craving, but not for the truth How I long for your touch when you're haunting all my thoughts Just cradle my carcass, or what it has become Over and over, I fed you with my flesh I'm left on the table, autopsied and a mess Took me apart like a worn and broken toy You bit out a chunk of my gore that you enjoyed Over and over, I spill my guts again Now I'm left here alone with my heartbreak and a bed My heartbreak and a bed Ah, my heartbreak and a bed You told me it's a fifteen minute walk from here, I relented in your game I felt your heartbeat in my bones as I touched your fragrant mane Welcoming oblivion as you tore me near to shreds With every minute we were there, fantasies filled my head Zipped in polyethylene, my feelings in its hold This mortuary for my heart is kept in freezing cold So don't tell me, console me, that it's not my fault at all I thought my feelings were enough, but I lacked the wherewithal Though I'm alive, without you there, it just seems like I'm stuck in a flatline My grand mistake was letting you have all these tears that I cried How I long for your touch when you're haunting all my thoughts Just cradle my carcass, or what it has become Over and over, I fed you with my flesh I'm left on the table, autopsied and a mess Took me apart like a worn and broken toy You bit out a chunk of my gore that you enjoyed Over and over, I spill my guts again Now I'm left here alone with my heartbreak and a bed Pain to me is affection, all connected with synapses But to whom will seem unsightly, with obscenities I dance Who am I but a distraction, and I know you'll ask the same But despite my vivisection, you shan't be blamed Am I just a bloody gauze your ego threw away Did I make you happy with all that I'd done to distract you from the pain What could I have done to somehow make you change your mind Cause all I had wanted was both of us to die side by side Oh, how I beg you "please don't go" I'll eat you up, I love you so Oh, I'm just out of my head I'm left with a heartbreak and a bed I've got a heartbreak and a bed INST: Coming soon!