Sense Of Self (Ft: Anri) - Haru-P

A song about my(?) internal instability. First and foremost, Thank you so much DarkCartoon for making the outstanding instrumental, I sent him a lil tiny wip of an idea i had and he composed this whole track. His power level honestly rivals that of the lord iyowa. lol anyways, check out his channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCFOb3f7ABRy4SdwUrO-g4AQ Backgrounds can be found here: https://itch.io/profile/guttykreum If you like this song please consider supporting me here! https://ko-fi.com/moomoomilkie Off vocal: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1r6b7kj0oGymaBAdIvbJDNe0TTYqYsAm1/view?usp=sharing U can cover this if u want blush emoji, I will reshare it everywhere. Lyrics: Ah~ I’m finding out now, All the ways I’ve slown down At least I see the place I wanna be And all this judgment is clouding all the music That I can’t read, So keep it all far away from me. Times running out, But i can’t stop this right now Keep running towards my sanctuary And all these notes keep clouding judgments, that I don’t need, really. But I guess in the end, Livings not pretend Although before, it was something that I might have said Keep picking up the pieces again Why doesn’t it end? Let’s start it again, and then. Singing my heart out, so then Darkness wouldn't catch me in the end. Though I run on ahead, yet again now, Even when I don’t wanna start this over. It just gets stronger and weaker the same Why won’t anything ever seem to change In the end, What i need, although stupid, you can see I honestly just wish that I could believe Everything that they told me. Ah~ I’m wishing now That I could be there somehow But never do you try to rea̴̻͋̍͗̎͂͂̒̇̈́͋̀́͊̈͝ch oû̷̡̜͔͊̅̒͌̈́̉̿͝ͅṭ̶̢̢͚͇̙̱̜͓̑…̵̤̭͓̞̥͓̔̾͂̾͊̍̈́̚ Lie to me, “Let's hold on tightly to our dream.” That’s everything that I yearn to be. I’m finding it out, Nothing ever slows down But maybe, there's a sanctuary. So I say, but looking for an answer is a disease In me. When you get to the end, Livings not pretend So i’ll keep Picking up the pieces today Found out I can change So stuck in my ways- How to say this…? Singing my heart out, so then Darkness wouldn't catch me in the end. Though I run on ahead, yet again now, Even when I don’t wanna start this over. It just gets stronger and weaker the same Why won’t anything ever seem to change In the end , What i need although stupid, you can see I honestly just wish that I could believe What you seem to think about me…. I guess in the end I can’t just pretend And so i’ll stake out alone To find some new connections. Singing my heart out, so then Darkness wouldn't catch me in the end. Though I run on ahead, yet again now, Even when I don’t wanna start this over. It just gets stronger and weaker the same Why won’t anything ever seem to change In the end what i need, although stupid, you can see I honestly just wish that I could believe Everything that they told me I can’t be one of your dreams, Sorry. “I can be anything!” “who knows what life might bring!” Right… Right? Unwell; my sense of self. Secret Sub-Song: https://youtu.be/MlTpempEAFM