[UTAU] Joking Speaker - Neko Kanochi [English]

I've been putting off uploading this for a long time. This song really gets me. I could never cover it until now because it upset me so much. But I can't say much about this on yt because of reasons. The lyrics are a mix of Cz's, Joydreamer's and my own. Ust is by umbrellaguns Harmonies ust by Cz Song by Nekoboro ----Lyrics---- The feelings I thought I'd thrown away. Destroy, destroy, me one by one. A smile like mine is all for show. The tears I cry, I hate them so. The wounds that I have to try and hide. They hurt. They hurt. But I can't say. It's funny you don't have a clue. It is because of you. Words you speak they cut so deep. Can't you see you're killing me? There's no way you could comprehend The crippled shape my heart is in. Light that burned is gone by now. I'll try to get it back somehow. At least now I can say my lies make up all of me. If a day begins and I find that You're gone. You're gone. That's fine with me. But you have left behind all of your things. All these wounds and these scars will not heal. Just as it has always been You turn to me and laugh again In the depths of my broken heart Forgiving you tears me apart "Stop, it hurts!" I cannot say. You wouldn't listen anyway. A joke is what I'll always be to you. Hah hah. Hah hah. Right now I could just disappear. But it's a lie, another lie. Words you speak they cut so deep. Can't you see you're killing me? In the depths of my broken heart I've hated my self from the start If you'd like to take away the life you gave it'd be okay. In the end I can say my lies make up All of me. After all.