VDolorum - "That Anxious Joy" Feat. Dex [Animatic MV]

Let it return TW - Mild Flash Warning New song! This one I wrote while suffering a very debilitating sensory shutdown so the lyrics are as raw as they could be. Its been ready since October but I decided to make a more complicated video this time! Woo Not gonna be doing that again for a while lmao Lyrics Thinking deeper than I thought I could Sen - sen - sensitive Little one never growing up like it should Only getting comfort from those who've lived Sou - sou - sounds Noi - noi - noise Flesh torn from my wings Play with my body on Puppet strings I just wanna rest but no! I have work to do You think that I jest It's not true I need to- PLEASE but no you can't "What's wrong with you?" Sensations that are hollow like bird bones Is this what you call sadness? I don't recognise the guilt and the pain grown from my minds infestation But I still yearn for the anxious joy That keeps me up all day and night Love-hate clawing shame into my brain all I want is for someone to hold me but I know my soul is already paint stained I know I know I know I know I know Disgusting intrusions My thoughts are hungry Starving a desperately reaching conclusion Let it return That anxious joy Is it really happiness? Of course! I have more than you Look at me, I'm perfect and you are still better Sensations that are hollow like bird bones I don't recognise the guilt and the pain grown But I still yearn for the anxious joy That keeps me up all day Sensations that are hollow like bird bones Is this what you call sadness? I don't recognise the guilt and the pain grown from my minds infestation But I still yearn for the anxious joy That keeps me up all day and night