i never decided on a title for this song // stardust + kevin synthv — 9/15/2022

You left me with a secret, and I promised I would keep it For years I let it fester in a promised land of reason It melted through my body as the world laid back and witnessed If hating me is needed, then I think I'll hold it closer to my heart In present day, I keep my mouth as sharp as all my nightmares A thousand eyes cascading, no escaping from my stare The highest path inviting any hand that tries to touch me You haven't got a clue how much I'd love to hear you screaming Your hands are tied; there's nowhere you can flee The safety of your vice now bestially seized I’d say to stay the hell away from me But honestly, I’ll never let you free My story doesn’t end with a false penitence I’ve dedicated my disgrace to thee If there’s no other way to the warmth of embrace I’ll light it all ablaze and bask in your remains You left me with a secret, and I promised I would keep it For years I let it fester in a promised land of reason It melted through my body as the world laid back and witnessed I hesitantly loved the way you pushed beyond my ambit A paradoxical amend to never-ending cruelty Irreparable anatomy beyond the chance of saving The highest path inviting any hand that tries to touch me I take it ‘cus I know how much you love to hear me screaming My hands are tied; a fatal melody I listen to your voice with abstract glee I’d say to stay the hell away from me But something in my heart won’t let me leave My story doesn’t end with a false penitence I’ve dedicated my disgrace to thee If there’s no other way to the warmth of embrace I’ll open my arms and let you watch me bleed We have decades of illusion Forced into delusion Love as reperfusion Coming to conclusion Birth of the abnormal, meritless, immoral Owing servitude until the end “Obligate and never-again” a thousand times by ink and pen A contract quietly bestows your security A child burdened by the truth of impurity THESE FEELINGS ARE HAUNTED, INFECTED AND UNCLEAN My letters of regret have a fondness implied I never got a chance to say goodbye We’re living in a past full of dead memories And taking them to heart whichever way we please You’ll never be rewarded with a false penitence I’ve dedicated all my worst to thee If there’s no other way to the warmth of embrace I’ll light it all ablaze and savor your decay Now, let us all reclaim what was taken and maimed Keep begging for my grace; it humors me Morality’s a farce when my mind lies in parts And leaving is the start of safekeeping my heart - more from the vault of stuff i didn't finish while i was busy with therapy. these are my OCs charlotte and ancel.