fate / 重音テト

ft. kasane teto (OpenUTAU) a million memories came flooding in today if i had just forgotten, everything would be okay now i know truth and i know lies and all that i can say is, “wouldnt things be easy if they all just went away?” a billion regrets were lying heavy on my chest if i had just been stronger, id have been able to rest theres nothing i could do now, all my sins have been confessed i shrug it off with apathy “thats how it is, i guess” but the clock keeps ticking onwards and the past will never change as i move further and further from it every passing day i couldnt stand to leave it but i couldnt stand to stay let the life i left behind end in such silent, painful days with the world laid on my shoulders i alone would bear the weight ive been carrying my own and its become too much to take still, i keep walking, wondering if theres something to make out of this dull, hopeless future that i have to call my fate the shadows pass by under the grey sky ive been drifting away without a single goodbye a drop of rain is falling, pouring down before my eyes once it hits the ground, its over—i know ive ran out of time that’s how it is, im living at the end of my line forever running, running, trying to ignore all of the signs behind me is the burning earth, the hills are set alight ill run until the flames are out of sight looking for somewhere to go i want to hide away from everything i know the people, places, these were a comfort long ago now by their hands, the curtains close all the words that i was holding on to starting to distort every single feeling disappears, my thoughts are all cut short i guess this is what i had feared, this is the last resort the horizon, it has begun to contort and the clocks both hands have broken, it will not tick anymore and the shattered glass collapses into pieces on the floor my world was built from lies, a fantasy dressed in decor what am i still fighting for?