IA / Paruparong Punit ang Pakpak

There is always hope. https://findahelpline.com/ ────────────────────────────────────────── Free Download: https://aryuna.bandcamp.com/album/paruparong-punit-ang-pakpak ────────────────────────────────────────── i'm sorry i'm so sorry i'll be good so please don't throw me away ────────────────────────────────────────── Music, lyrics, illustrations and video: Aryuna https://aryuna.bandcamp.com https://soundcloud.com/aeternitascaeli https://twitter.com/aeternitascaeli Vocal: IA Special thanks: Fioglo Baluyot Keinel Ace Guinto Isaac John "Dick" De Guzman ────────────────────────────────────────── ─── Tagalog─ English Translation─── Isang bangungot na hindi ako makawala. It's a nightmare that I can't escape from. Ramdam ko pa ang bigat ng katawan niya. I can still feel the weight of his body. Sa bawat pikit ng aking mata, Every time I close my eyes, Mundo't isip ko'y biglaang humihinto. My world and mind just stops. Sa gabi'y ayaw manahimik ng isip ko. At night, my mind can't rest at all. Ni tulog, ninakaw nito. It even stole my sleep. Ba't nga ba ko nagkagan'to? Why did I become like this? Ano ba nagawa ko para mapala ito? What did I do to deserve this? At ngayon ang... And now... Paruparong ninakawan ng kamusmusan The butterfly that got its innocence stolen Pilit lilipad sa bukas ng walang kaalaman. Will force itself to fly to a tomorrow without knowing anything. Para di muli mapunit ng aking pakpak, So that my wings won't get torn apart again, Sasarado ko ang mundo ko't ako wawasak. I'll be the one who'll close and destroy my world. Nagdaan ang araw, senyales sumusulpot Then the days passed and signs begin to appear Na may bagong buhay saki'y namumuo. That a new life is forming inside me. Parang nababaliw na 'ko. I think I'm going crazy. 'Di ko kakayaning mabuhay na may kasamang demonyo. I can't bear myself living with a demon. Ngayon, sa kamay ko'y itong... Now in my hands is... Isang lubid, binuhol ko. ...A noose that I tied. May halaga pa ba ang buhay ko? Is my life even worth anything? Alam kong makasarili ako I know that I'm selfish. Pero di ko na kaya. But I can't take it anymore. DUWAG LANG AKO. I'M NOTHING BUT A COWARD. Kahit punit-punit na ang pakpak ko, Even if my wings are all torn apart, May makakarinig kaya ng sigaw ko? Will there be anyone that can hear my screams? Kahit mawala ang liwanag sa'king mata, Even if the lights in my eyes were to disappear, May makakapansin kaya ng hirap ko? Will there be anyone that can notice my suffering? Bakit nga ba kinimkim ko 'tong sakit sa'king puso lahat? Why did I even keep all this pain inside my heart? 'Kala ko kaya ko 'tong mag-isa. 'Yokong maging isang pabigat. I thought I could do this alone. I don't want to be a burden. 'Yoko ng gulo. 'Yokong lumala ito. Katahimikan lang siguro'y sapat. I don't want any trouble. I don't want to make things worse. Maybe just some quiet time is all I need. At ayokong makasakit ng mga taong minamahal ko sa lahat. And I just don't want to hurt the people I love. O ayaw ko lang tanggapin ang katotohanan? Or is just that I can't accept the truth? Dahil ba ang puso ko'y puno ng kahihiyan Is it because my heart is full of shame? At takot na walang maniwala sa'kin? And fear that no one would ever believe me? O dahil kasalanan ko 'to rin? Or maybe everything's really just my fault? Darating kaya ang araw na Will the day ever come Gagaling itong aking mga sugat? for all my wounds to be healed? Ang kawakaang yakap-yakap ako mula noo'y... The nothingness that embraced me for so long... ...Binitawan na 'ko. ...Finally let me go.