GUMI / Sirenomelia

Free Download: aryuna.bandcamp.com/album/sirenomelia ────────────────────────────────────────── "Why does everyone hate me? I know I'm kinda weird, kinda off but I get lonely too. I get really lonely a whole lot." A story of a lonely mermaid who wants friends. ────────────────────────────────────────── Music, lyrics, illustrations and video: Aryuna https://aryuna.bandcamp.com https://soundcloud.com/aeternitascaeli https://twitter.com/aeternitascaeli Vocaloid: GUMI Special thanks: Lielle de Keren Alexander Torres Gabriel Estrella HiImRaven Mofun Astrea Poleng Gen ────────────────────────────────────────── ─── Original─ English Translation─── I'm a fish out of water, not belonging anywhere. Left behind with rain all over me, The sun won't smile on me. "Gusto ko ng kaibigan, at wala ng iba pa." "I just want friends and that's it." Nagdaan ulit ang araw na ako'y mag-isa. Another day passed again where I'm all alone. Isa 'kong sirenang ibang-iba sa mga normal na tao. I'm a mermaid, so different from normal people. At sa mata nila'y halimaw ako. And in their eyes, I'm a monster. Nalulunod ang puso ko sa dagat ng kalungkutan. My heart is drowning in a sea of loneliness. Lagi nalang akong nakatahimik na parang wala lang. I always stay silent like nothing's wrong. "'Yoko ng maging mag-isa, 'yoko na ring maging sirena." "I don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to be a mermaid anymore." Gusto kong maging kagaya niyo, isang normal na tao. I just want to be like you guys, just a normal person. I'm a mermaid out of water, Slightly, slightly loony somewhere. An idea hatched in my head. But it's better done than said. Dahan-dahan kong tinuro ang kutsilyo ko sa buntot ko. I carefully pointed my knife at my tail. Sinaksak ko't biniyak para maging paa. I stabbed it and tore it apart, so that it can become feet. Dugo ko'y kumakalat sa sahig, pati laman ko. My blood is spilling on the floor, even my flesh. Sana dito'y normal na tao na rin ako. I hope that with this, I'm finally a normal person. Napakasakit ng kada yapak. Each step hurts so much. Nalaglag nalang ang katawan ko. My body just collapsed. Ayaw rin tumigil ng pagdudugo. The bleeding just won't stop. Namamatay na 'kong mag-isa. I'm dying all alone. Katawan ko'y 'di na kayang gumalaw. My body can't move anymore. Naglalaho na paningin ko. My vision is fading. "Tulungan niyo ko!" Iniyak ko't sinigaw ko pero walang duminig. "Help me!" I cried and shouted but nobody heard to me. Nalulunod ako sa dagat ng sarili kong dugo't mga luha. I'm drowning in a sea of my own blood and my tears. Sana nga, di nalang ako nabuhay. It would've been better if I never lived. Kasalanan bang humiling ng isang bukas na ako'y nakangiti? Is it a sin for me to wish a tomorrow where I'm smiling? "Gusto ko lang ng kaibigan. Gusto ko lang na maging masaya." "I just want friends. I just want to be happy." "At gusto ko lang na may magmahal sa'kin, kahit maging sinoman ako." "And I just want someone to love me, whoever I may be." O Lunae Lumina, O Lunae Lumina, O Lunae Lumina, O Lunae Lumina, In lumine tuo, videbimus lumen. In your light, we will see light. Et nunc et semper. Now and forever.