No Me [ft. Mai SynthV]

This song is for a character in my webcomic “One Dream Apart”! If you’re interested, you can read it on Webtoon Canvas: https://webtoons.com/en/canvas/one-dream-apart/list?title_no=1141676 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3Q7QxQ7SSPERjN3tm37YbT - Music / Lyrics / Illust. / Video : Hapcyon Vocal : Mai (Synthesizer V) Lyrics: “Do it all another day”, ha I know I said that yesterday, but I couldn’t make all the pain go away, ugh It was fine when I didn’t think about it Another face without a name, oh It doesn’t matter if everything's the same, no The world keeps moving before I find my place, so Why am I even searching for an answer? I gave up every time before I could even matter I tried, but with no results, will it ever matter? Who am I even supposed to be? Is anybody even trying? Ah, I couldn’t see it was always right in front of me There’s no “me” in this fake reality So, I’ll do it over, and over, and over again Even if I grow sick and tired of it It won’t matter if I don’t look at it I wish I could forget I even tried it But now it’s over, and over, and over again I guess no matter what, I won't reach the true end I can’t remember why I even tried it Well, no one needs to know about a nobody “I need you” Tell me a lie, just one more time, no Will you forgive me, or will you leave tonight? Oh I couldn’t tell you this wasn’t a goodbye, but I just can’t be who you want me to be Even if I told you a lie, oh I know I’d mess up some other time, oh Is it ok for me to be alive? oh I don’t know if it's alright So, Tell me what I’m supposed to feel when you turn your back Will you find me even if I don’t laugh at that? Is it alright to be with someone like me? I don’t think I’ll ever understand your insanity I know I can’t do a thing even if I don’t believe in that But I don’t think I can become someone like that Even if I couldn’t find you in my last dream, Can you tell me what I’m even supposed to be? It’s over, and over, and over again I didn’t try to fight it now or back then It won’t matter if I don’t look at it I wish I could forget I even tried it But now I’m older, and older, and older again I guess no matter what, I won't be a true friend I can’t remember why I even tried it Well, no one needs to know about a nobody I’ll do it over, and over, and over again But now I’m older, and older, and older again And I can’t hold on to this stupid fantasy I want to be someone worthy of reality But there’s no me, so I don’t need to think freely If I could dream, would I become somebody? I don’t think I’ll ever become who you want me to be I don’t know what I’m doing—I said I’m fine with being empty But it’s easy to just say I'll do anything I guess after all of that, I still want a dream I want to know how to become somebody