BROKEN BODY // NEKOMURA IROHA SV

oh my god dude i'm DDDYYYYYYIIIINGGGGGGGG i'm posting this well past my allotted bed time (10pm) (i'm posting this at 10:15). fingers crossed i remember to make it to the premiere tomorrow after work the pv this time around is a good bit fancier bc i recently bought davinci resolve and i've been learning the program!! it's definitely been a steep learning curve but the more i get used to it the more fun i end up having! this song is about sex trauma (again) (sorry) but more specifically i wanted to focus on the feeling of objectification; an act of sexual abuse necessitates the perpetrator seeing the victim as an object from which to extract pleasure from. this song is pretty depressing ofc but it's also a plea for humanity. if you're going to hurt someone, you can't divorce yourself psychologically from the fact that who you're hurting is a real person, someone who had thoughts and dreams and goals. ok before i leave i would just love to shoutout the talented Strawdool for doing the art for this song!!! they did AMAZING plz plz plz check them out :3 [ https://www.tumblr.com/strawdool?source=share ] you can find my links (including twitter, patreon, and whatever else) over here! [ https://camovocaaa.carrd.co/ ] --- [Lyrics] staring back at a lover's loss it makes your stomach churn because lucifer's facade looked so tempting oh, but it felt right at the time you drink until it hurts dizzy pleasure so sublime yet you're empty there's nothing left to accept yes, you should be sorry what kind of man could respect such a broken body learn how to laugh at rotting skin learn to hate all that's within far too late and too dirty hollow you're empty the vessel counts another body used up and tossed away like a paramour obscene disgusting a broken tool that's not worth using come put me in my place underneath the floor i can't blame you for going so rough not your fault i'm hard to love oh aren't i so warped? you've made me a walking corpse shambling back into it's crypt flesh falling off it's bones with it's dignity all stripped looking tempting oh, it's so sultry in it's sin there's nothing more perverse than your bare corrupted skin so relenting oh, perfect broken toy black and blue and bloodied in it's joy humiliated, humbled, and defeated oh, what a tragic waste it's not calibrated to my tastes ceramic's not supposed to be bleeding lusting, rusting isn't it disgusting? leering, yearning your personhood's disturbing rotten, heaving this roadkill is still breathing laugh at the fawn with the gall to have feelings hurt it, burn it kick it till it's screaming then, when it dies we don't have to hear it weeping hollow and lonely there's more beyond this broken body slaughtered by my beloved and it wasn't right daring, resenting this sadness makes me taste appalling butchered and bleeding mud but i'm still alive i'm sorry for not being enough i want more than bloodied love oh, i am made of art powered by a beating heart --- MP3: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1kyoji_C7JtCmi3vIETFnO8-BO5iNN7pe?usp=drive_link Inst: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1Mq6UZAJMy_txX_rx2F0bQJtJbOhwt9Lx?usp=drive_link SVP: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1ansSFTiYj9rInRwqhf_oLvq_xEE2RJPU?usp=drive_link Vocal midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1pYQ7xuRULtj1cNnwy_BSFCG5ODCSQa5e?usp=sharing --- #vocaloid #synthv #synthesizerv #nekomurairoha #nekomurairohasv #originalsong #carbonmonoxide #synthesizerv2