Botanophobia // Asterian [CoF]

SOOO HAPPY TO HAVE THIS SONG OUT !! from this point onwards honestly u might see a big uptick in the quality of my music, bc now i feel like i have a really solid grasp on chord progressions specifically!! that and i just . am in love with how this song turned out and how my next couple songs r shaping up LOL character in this is named alex btw!!! he's very cool and totally isn't experiencing the horrors or anything. you can learn more about the horrors he's not experiencing on his toyhouse page! https://toyhou.se/26561123.alex-aziz big big BIG shoutout to MothWithAPencil on tumblr for drawing the art for this video!! it turned out SOO good and i'm very happy with the full product! u can check out her stuff over here :] [ https://www.tumblr.com/mothwithapencil ] youtube is once more refusing to let me put this song's story in the description, so u can find it at the top comment! and u can find ME on these other platforms B) twitter: https://twitter.com/DieoxideCarbon soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/monoxide-p bandcamp: https://carbonmonoxideco.bandcamp.com/ coming to streaming services as soon as distrokid gets on that ------------ [Lyrics] lonely boy, reaching for the stars, craving the moon he got too close to the sun, woke up in the afternoon little boy, hibernating till the start of june if the world was perfect pitch, then he was grossly out of tune careful what you say remember who you were that day wonder if the man who shares your face had also used your name past what you condemn pretend you know how to repent remember why you were then forget it all over again haunted by what has remained scared of the unexplained how can you let go of all that you cannot recall stubborn barriers contain flora deeply ingrained daffodils inside my head they say they want us dead whispers through the grape vine my life is not mine pass it through the grape vine my mind is benign blink and you're no longer here picking stems inside your ears it seems my body's smarter than what holds back a tired pen blink and at once you're awake lay back down slam on the brakes it seems i'm no smarter than what holds back a flooding dam what i mean lost meaning grieve for the living set it back to square zero settling roots grow tired boy, existing only inside his head alive but already dead throw up spores over my bed little boy, too young and too old he says to me paradoxical designs let him color outside the lines don't know what to do forget why you're feeling so blue do the flowers behind your eyes know how much they mean to you thinking through the pain regain live through all this again shed all you can't erase you'll regret it in the first place trace your sins around your palms hiding from weeping psalms padlocked by a broken wall and you're feeling so small memories he undertook flora an open book i hear tulips, and they say, they tried to keep me safe whispers through the grape vine everything is fine sing it through the grape vine my life's the punchline blink and you're no longer here picking stems inside your ears it seems my body's smarter than what holds back a tired pen blink and at once you're awake lay back down slam on the brakes it seems i'm no smarter than what holds back a flooding dam what i mean lost meaning grieve for the living set it back to square zero settling roots grow shouting through the grape vine your hand lays in mine blink and everything's so clear killing what i thought was real it seems my body's smarter than what holds back a bleeding pen close your eyes cover your ears will yourself to disappear it seems i'm no smarter than what holds back a flooding dam what i felt lost feeling live for the grieving reaching out towards the moon settling roots bloom --- MP3: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1kyoji_C7JtCmi3vIETFnO8-BO5iNN7pe?usp=drive_link Inst: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1Mq6UZAJMy_txX_rx2F0bQJtJbOhwt9Lx?usp=drive_link SVP: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1ansSFTiYj9rInRwqhf_oLvq_xEE2RJPU?usp=drive_link Vocal midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1pYQ7xuRULtj1cNnwy_BSFCG5ODCSQa5e?usp=sharing