0TS / Glass Pen ft. Adachi Rei

I told myself I wouldn't return to my normal life until I finished this song, and somehow, that gave me the power to write and produce it in under three days. I wrote one of the melodies for it when I was just shy of fourteen, as I intended to release it on my birthday that year. The one line I had written was: "Oh, it's a miracle that you're still here." I have been producing for almost four years. Soon, I will be an adult. ---- Music/Lyrics/Mix/Master/Illust/Video ~ 0TS Vocals ~ Aadchi Rei ADACHI REI EN ARPAsing voice referencing ~ Wormwood ---- I’m made of useless inequalities and inference I’m never knowing where I’ve gone and seen or who I’ve been I’ve lost the plot, amounting thoughts of friends as enemies I don’t know if this me is right, if it deserves to live I can’t keep moving with this shrouding doubt I try to fight But it consumes my waking thoughts and stalks me every night It’s always telling me to run from something lovely, I don’t think it’s like me to try Please give me something new to write my eulogy with Please let me make the ending to this story, give a beautiful gift Please let me comprehend what I’ll never perceive The words of those with me that I’ll never read Please understand there’s shards of glass on every inside Please don’t ever forgive the me who’s trying to hide Please give me a little time, I just need a little time I just need a little time, I just need a little time, I just need a little– Coursing through me’s an emergent urgent sense of dread I can’t keep thinking ‘bout the thoughts inside a million heads Just like stars they’re beating, beaming, screaming as they die Like a supernova, bloody in a shiny sky Coursing through me’s an emergent urgent sense of dread As divergent words are surging through a level head I’ll write these thoughts, so lost, contorting through a glass pen Like a chorus, red abhorrence rains from overhead Please give me something new to write my eulogy with Please let me make a universe where nothing hurts and silence persists Please call me credible so I can explain with words falling empty in every space, and Thank you for the time we spent exploring a dream, and Thank you for the pressure, my discretion has a virtuous gleam Thank you for trying, but I’m just a little lost I am just a little lost, and I’m lost in front of you, It’s my ugly, shameful truth Coursing through me’s an emergent urgent sense of dread I can’t keep thinking ‘bout the thoughts inside a million heads Just like stars they’re beating, beaming, screaming as they die Like a supernova, bloody in a shiny sky I don’t deserve this world, without me it would be the same I’ll collect your worries, tears and sins, and take the blame After all, I’m nothing more than just a sore machine Doubt kills the flower, growing sour, on the side of me ---- SUPPORT MECHANICAL GIRL ~ https://mechanicalgirl.jp/ MY TWITTER ~ x.com/0TSXL SUPPORT ME ~ https://ko-fi.com/0tenshi SUPPORT [MACHINA MORI] ~ https://x.com/AdachiAlbum