The Survivor's Ego【SynthV Original Song ft. Mai】

hello friends we are back in the swing of things i am making good songs with ease again life is good and fortune rains from the sky and blesses me once again. i actually finished this song yesterday but like it was at 1 am so none of my loyal fans were awake unfortunately so i had to wait a whole 20 hours to upload the song. i know the youtube analytics say that upload time doesn't affect long-term performance but i'm gonna be honest half the fun of making songs is the ego boost when i watch the numbers go up after uploading the song. can't get that ego boost if everyone is asleep. i rest my case. oh and this is my first song in a while to have consistenly rhyming lyrics i was in my mind palace thinking of words and literary techniques from dawn to dusk it was crazy (it took an hour and a half to write the songs lyrics and i was watching jerma clips for most of the time) alright. whatever. enjoy the song or i'll pull your spine out through your asshole and use the bones as windchimes or something. idk. lyrics: If I say it wrong If I wait too long If I let it rust Everybody'd want me gone If I say too much It'd turn to dust Festering in song And in me, they plant distrust Oh Voices all around me They say I shouldn't worry Oh naïveté it disgusts me One word, never listen I'm acting oh-so distant One perspective and you're omniscient Oh and the flower petals grow And I wear them like a badge of pride (horrid) Badge of how died Oh and you watched the way I grew From a human festering in light (ego) To a man afire Ah what a sorry sight! You are nothing but a mere Boldfaced liar in survivor's clothes And I'm Nothing without your care And it makes me wanna tear Out my brain and replace it all If I say it wrong If I wait too long If I let it rust Everybody'd want me gone If I say too much It'd turn to dust Festering in song And in me, they plant distrust If I say you're wrong And display our flaws Would you deconstruct Or just laugh 'till I withdraw Do I say too much? In your words, I must But despite my law Still you claim me so unjust Oh Deadly exhibition The bias of a man who Wears my rags to hide from his riches Cruelty doesn't suit him So he much prefers the Safety of my own superstition Oh but no matter how I hope I could never truly hate his guts (coward) Recollections of Love and the way he always was Ain't he such a lovely guy, ya see? (I wonder) Where did things go wrong? Ah what a pallid sight! How you play the hand of plight Only then to destroy it all And I'm Sorry for hurting you Oh how cruel it must have been For me to leave you in one piece Or was it just pretend? Could we go back then to when You were everything inside my mind But I'm Nothing without distrust And it hurts my heart to say You fooled me a dozen times And now I'm scared Ah what a tragic sight! For a man like you to claim True neutrality above his time And I'm Nothing without your care And it makes me wanna tear Out my brain and replace it all If I say it wrong If I wait too long If I let it rust Everybody'd want me gone If I say too much It'd turn to dust Festering in song And in me, they plant distrust ~~~~~~~~ inst: https://www.mediafire.com/file/ybgbjiybabd3rr5/brain+scratcher.wav/file soundcloud: https://on.soundcloud.com/3H6PC