DiSoRdEr (ft. Kasane Teto) [SynthV Original Song]

YAYYY TETO SONG!!! This song is directed at a specific person in my life who's SUPPOSED to be taking care of me THE RIGHT WAY, while I was also just like "lemme throw in a couple other things in my life too" 2025 update: Said person is a lot better now but this song still stands regardless. IMPORTANT NOTE THOUGH, THE TINY GREEK LINE DOES NOT MIX WITH THE ENGLISH TOO WELL SO IM SORRY ABOUT THAT bookmarked, this will be fixed im sorry teto ♡ ————————— ♡ CREDITS: Music, art, lyrics, video, tuning: Saturn Candies Vocals: Kasane Teto synthv ♡ ————————— ♡ LINKS: Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1hiTVtAyJqGnrxEzzoCEF2COQCcfJ-POr?usp=sharing ♡ ————————— ♡ LYRICS: Drag myself awake It's nothing new, nothing new That is all so much to take Oh, what am I here to do Just another day I lie in the life without a tie I stare into the smoke with the feeling I provoke Hey, are you okay? Well I don't know what to say You won't know when I decay I guess I'll lie anyway All that love and stuff you preach seems to die within your reach So I don't think you know why I needed you to go Benefits, You don't get anything from me Lose your shit, you said you'd take my life from me Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons Crying forms an ocean in this circle of emotions Maybe I could stop myself from dying if I want I refuse, I refuse All my plans were made to use Pray my life away Oh what to do, what to do I'm just hoping you decay I'm such a mess, I hate you I'm remembering the days you would hold those cigarettes I'm hoping that one day, you will see all your regrets Scared I'm in your steps Oh what a shame, what a shame Yet you think that I'm insane Και κούκλα σου's not the same Take a hold of what you see, not what you want to believe You try so hard, but fail, in the things that you perceive Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons Crying forms an ocean in this circle of emotions Maybe I could stop myself from dying if I want I refuse, I refuse I remember the abuse You hurt us both, and I hate that trope I blame you for why I'm like this too Do you know all those moments you went on to shame me for what you gave me So hold me up by my throat And slam me down to hit and shove No, I don't think you ever heard "I love you" honestly So shine your gold instead of me And say what you want me to be Just hold yourself accountable and be nicer to me Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons You have formed the oceans in this circle of emotions Maybe you could change yourself, be better if you want You refuse, you refuse All my life has been no use Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons I have formed the oceans in this circle of emotions Maybe I could change myself, be better like you want I refuse, I refuse Due to you, I've been abused ♡ ————————— ♡ MY CARRD: https://thesaturncandies.carrd.co/# ♡ ————————— ♡ DO NOT MAKE MONITIZED REPOSTS OF MY SONGS DO NOT REPOST MY SONGS TO OTHER WEBSITES