0TS / Protégé ft. SF-A2 Miki

With just a few words, I was changed. I want to become my wildest dreams. --- Music/Lyrics/Mix/Master ~ 0TS Talk portion ~ @u_piko Tuning ~ ​⁠ ‪@Mage-P Sampled music ~ @JamiePaigeIRL Thumbnail illust ~ ​⁠‪https://x.com/wood_carbuncle Art/Animation/Video ~ 0TS Vocals ~ SF-A2 Miki ---- I’ve been trying for so long to make sense of making songs Forging purpose, feigning pride Standing static, paralyzed Oh, I don’t do much at all Idling null before the fall Didn’t think I’d turn out to be SO WEAK! I just want to improve and impress you I’m looking right up at you, oh But I’m barely enough for myself, nor those looking up at me too This pageless poet has the prowess of a pigeon, and when faced with failure I don't stand a chance! You say I’m special as I shadow your success, but I can't make a living if I can't catch my breath! Falling like a drop from cloud to cheek I don't have the means to be a prodigy Still, I am gonna make it, don't you see and I'll reach the hand extended out from you to me I want it to be true, I wanna be just like you! I'd do anything to stand with you one day I'll be your earnest protégé! You've been working for so long You've made sense of making songs You've found purpose where you are You're a self-made superstar I remind you of yourself I'm a mirror to your past So, does the answer come with time? Can you tell me? Do I have the strength to grow up? Do I have what it takes, or is it all in my head? Am I quick or just impatient? Planting the seeds too late, rushing the incubation Can't take being amateur I practice day and night to get to a state where I am certain that I truly belong (Are you ready?) (My chud life…) I want it more than anything… I want it more than anything!!!! (Can you teach me to be…) SOMEONE WORTH THE ENERGY WHO KNOWS THEIR WORTH ENTIRELY AND BREAKS DOWN EVERY BOUNDARY EURYTHMY ALWAYS FOLLOWING WITH MUSIC THAT MEANS MORE THAN ANYTHING CAN YOU TEACH ME TO BE REAL? (I’m such a fucking chud!) Falling like a drop from cloud to cheek Oh, I’ll live in parallel with all my dreams I give in to the noise and finally see I've been singing to a crowd who all feel just like me! I want it to be true, I wanna be just like you! I'd do anything to make you proud one day I'll be your steadfast protégé You'll cheer my name! ---- MY TWITTER ~ https://x.com/0TSXL SUPPORT ME ~ https://ko-fi.com/0tenshi BANDCAMP LINK ~ https://0tenshi.bandcamp.com/track/prot-g LISTEN TO MACHINA MORI NOW ~ https://ffm.to/machina-mori ---- This song was made as a style study of Jamie Paige's works initially, but the concept I had thought up was something I wanted to turn into a full song. Just two years ago, I thought music to be just another hobby of mine, but now, it has the potential to be my career, and I'm faced with living up to my predecessors in the VOCALOID community, somehow... So many of the producers I'd looked up to in the past became direct influences and role models in my life, and I've learned so much, but oh, do I want to become a professional like them! I'll work every day for it. I live on my own now, pursing music solo. I want it more than anything, to have music that means more than anything, to grow up under your warmth and sunshine.