0TS / KILL U GIRL ft. Kasane Teto

My submission to #vocagatheringBETA! This song has been a treacherous journey. I am glad to finally show it to you. I love Kasane Teto. ---- Music/Lyrics/Mix/Master ~ 0TS Tuning ~ ​⁠@Mage-P Illust ~ @himawanai Video ~ 0TS & ​⁠@shromp_ Vocals ~ Kasane Teto SV & utau Design ~ ​⁠@olaylien ---- Restricted by a flimsy alibi I’d rather not regret the days we spent Every day holds the same repeated unrestricted apathy I wouldn’t dare complain I've tried for years to earn your love and grace So crisp around the edges, learning my place Even so, every day, I can hear a demon calling out to me– “Your efforts here will only go to waste” Trapped in Omelas behind A wall of choker chains Say my name, say my prayers before you Let me take the blame Twisting shame, like a dagger, like a blade In your hands, through my veins The canaries cry but know I can’t be saved I just wanna be someone that never has to grow With a bendy sense of self mold me into something low I’ll take it with a smile as you’re brandishing your knife If you treat me like a game could your love please be my prize? I can't remember what it's like to put up a fight or to do what's right for me ‘cause when happiness and peace is a dream, oh no one really cares just how innocent you seem I try to tell myself you're good on the inside but all my common sense tells me to run and hide God, give me a sign that I'm doing something right or I'll look me in my eyes and decide IT’S TIME TO DIE A rigid type of love-monopoly I'll place all of my bets on winning your praise In the end, though we're friends, I can feel your hate taking a toll on me, you rip my art to shreds rip my heart to shreds I can't handle it, handle it, handle anymore take another day, suck it up and, take what it'll take for me to stay standing by your side smothering my pride shattered, paralyzed If I leave then won't I be alone again? Coursing through me’s an emergent urgent sense of dread as divergent words are surging through a level head I'm submerging all my worries in a Daemon Thread Always perfect, always working ‘till my final breath All I wanted all this time was just to be myself but now I can't recognize my own voice With your hands, rip my persona into shreds I can't remember what it's like to put up a fight or to do what's right for me ‘cause when happiness and peace is a dream, oh no one really cares just how innocent you seem I WELCOME SHAME AS IT BEATS AT MY CONSCIOUS HOLD IT SQUARE IN YOUR HANDS, A HILT-COMPLEX I SAID I WOULDN'T GIVE UP UNTIL MY LAST BREATH BUT I'VE LOST IT ALL I can't remember what it's like to be somewhat liked to be more than just a tool ‘cause when all that you believe is a lie, oh no one’s there to care or understand you when you cry I never wanted this, oh, I'm just a kid but my destiny is set and the walls are closing in Someone please, take my hand, I just wanna be your friend! Don't just look me in the eyes and decide IT’S TIME TO DIE ---- MY TWITTER ~ https://x.com/0TSXL MAGE-P'S TWITTER ~ https://x.com/okaymagep FENDERDEATH'SS TWITTER ~ https://x.com/fenderdeath IO'S TWITTER ~ https://x.com/shromp_ OLAY'S TWITTER ~ https://x.com/Olaylien SUPPORT ME ~ https://ko-fi.com/0tenshi SUPPORT VOCAGATHERING ~ https://vocagathering.com/ SUPPORT TWINDRILL ~ https://kasaneteto.jp/ LISTEN TO MACHINA MORI NOW ~ https://ffm.to/machina-mori ---- Don't stick around for the people who use your good grace for their own gain. It's okay to leave. ---- INSTRUMENTAL DOWNLOAD - https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Ti5FAhDhwFR5fzgcAFjwywVrOy3SNm2G/view?usp=sharing