0TS / I'm Going Home!! ft. GUMI

I just moved out. An indescribable feeling. --- Music/Lyrics/Mix/Master ~ 0TS Concept ~ 0TS & @Mage-P Tuning ~ ​⁠ @Mage-P Illust ~ ​⁠@adricheri Video ~ 0TS Vocals ~ GUMI SV, Mai ---- Cold is the harsh glare of the headlights from cars passing by day and night They are glowing and coming and going through low smokes that roll and ash that falls like snow Packing our things, yet not understanding We’re passing through grounds with no roots or inhabitants Clinging to nothing, no reason to pray that “home” won’t be a thing of yesterday You’re “aching to stay” and yet you proclaim to me that there’s no other way The seasons will change Permanence is a performance but ever on it thrums like a promise Irreverent to a difference Making a wave in a cosmical caused disturbance fills me with drive I am taking-ta-taking a chance, HEY! Dance through another town Clap your hands, then fill them with flowers I know there's no purpose in building a scene in a fantasy One where you're kind to me Breaking my spirit, holding me down Your words, they constrict, and they tug and they pull, but By God, you will not hold me here I'll be off to love again! I say, I say, I know it’s true I’ll be off to love again in a place far from you! Oh, year after year passes by and I'm still nothing like you So I never say what I mean stuttering a faint “I love you” With these broken wings I'll still fly further from this nest forged by time “Nay,” I tell you, “I hate goodbyes” Even though I'm going Hot is the hawk’s stare as she watches me melt through the floor I am pure, small I'm shaking, I'm curdling I'm burning 103 degrees fevering sheepishly Holding my tongue with the hand that feeds you bite the sounds that come out of me So silence the mouth, the mouth that needs that begs to know what you want from me I'm sorry, I'm trying, it's never enough You hammer that nail and shatter me, ever on holding me, scolding me, kissing me better But I don't feel better No, I don't feel better at all! My heart exists where I'm free I stretch my feathers and scarves and hope they won't catch the wheel and choke me on the way out Still, I'll be off to love again! I say, I say, I know it’s true I’ll be off to love again in a place far from you! I'll be off to love again! La-la-dee-lie, nothing to lose I'll be off to love again leaps and bounds above you! So, dance through another town Clap your hands, then fill them with flowers Rebuild to the sound of the tambourine Come around, see it through, stomp your feet, me and you Drums, they will thrash, pianos attack The rhythm is thick but it carries us, thicker than blood, thicker than gasoline I'll be off to love again! Oh, I am bigger than I seem I’ll be off to love again to exist, to be free Though I'm reckless, I'm running with purpose, with life and I'm still nothing like you Branching from a root, frayed and dried flow’ring from the concrete curbside With these broken fenders I'll drive further from this nest forged by time “Nay,” I tell you, “I hate goodbyes” Even though I'm leaving your side I am growing past what I've lost glowing with the cracks on my skin Though I still am breaking under the weight I am marching on despite the pain Even when I'm changing I’m staying steady I'm standing tall, staying me Changing for the better I'll change forever I'll make a home just for me! ---- MY TWITTER ~ https://x.com/0TSXL SUPPORT ME ~ https://ko-fi.com/0tenshi LISTEN TO MACHINA MORI NOW ~ https://ffm.to/machina-mori ---- I am changing, and I’m going to change forever. Ah, I’ll be off to love…